Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in mikey_2x4's LiveJournal:

Thursday, April 30th, 2009
6:33 pm	So Batman shit ( This is mainly for Luke ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 26th, 2008
3:55 pm	Updates: they're what I do when I remember to do them. I know, I know. I don't write often. Its partly because I honestly feel that I don't have a lot to write about. But then I'll say something to someone that I don't get to see often in real life and get, "What the hell are you talking about." That's when I realize that my social life is basically limited to those I see at work and the three other people that live in my house. Though there are occasional guest spots by friends who come over on Saturday nights and random calls from my brother. So... ( here's what's been going on. ) That's about it for now. I'm still working out the concepts for my game. Actually! I e-mailed my CEO and had mentioned it to him in a context of something that we were discussing and he responded by saying that my e-mail is on his mind. Not that that's a sure-fire door or anything, but its cool to know that my idea is willing to be heard when the time is appropriate. I have a shitton more work to put into it, but I think it could be amazing once things are said and done. We'll see, though. Anyway, now its time for me to check out Target for cheap Speed Racer DVDs. Oh please have them. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 28th, 2008
12:25 pm	My weekend... two weeks ago. Because I’m lazy I haven’t really sat down to write about how last weekend went, nor have I really had the chance to tell anyone about it other than Luke briefly and Vince when we got home on Sunday. So in all its glory sans pictures (dumb ass me forgot the camera while making sure I had other shit ready), our weekend getaway… ( in words! ) (Comment on this)
Monday, June 18th, 2007
11:38 am	Troubles, Trails, and Tribulations As of yesterday my dad is back in the hospital. Happy Father's Day, Dad. He called me this morning and I talked to him for a bit. He knew who I was, so that's a good sign. He just sounded really weak and rather tired. Apparently he goes in for surgery (or is already in it) today. He said he'd call me once he regained consciousness so I knew what was going on. Now I just have to hope that all goes well and I get a call from a groggy but healthy father later tonight. It sucks because I can't help but feel a little selfish in this whole situation. I have so much that is going on in my life in the next few weeks that if--God forbid--something were to happen things could get totally out of control. I'd have to reshuffle things and make sure other things still got done, and... it sucks. Because I feel like a dick thinking, Oh, well, if this hadn't happened, all this other shit would have gone smoothly. Especially when my dad is involved. I think of that and I get mad at myself a bit; because seriously, family should be first, right? Even if--and they should--things do go over smoothly with my dad, I'm also stressed about making sure that the events of this upcoming Sunday on to July 2nd, work out. That's a lot of days to worry about. Indeed. Yet I like it when things work. I like it more when the person I'm trying to make things work for is happy. Quite trying, but I believe I can do it. And in a random turn of events, it seems that Lauren may be coming up from the OC to hang out for a bit tonight. That will be cool since we'll not hang out for awhile, yet are able to pick up as if there was no time lost. We'll probably get some dinner and do some random adventuring of some kind. Basically, we'll act like dumb ass kids and laugh our asses off about it the entire time. Should be fun if it happens. For now, I'm going to go back to reading and waiting to get out of work. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2007
12:06 pm	It means nothing to anyone but It will be mine. Oh yes... it will be mine. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
8:26 pm	Make the impossible, possible "If someone says can't, that shows you what to do." -- John Cage, American Composer In life there are opportunities that should never be missed. Chances that should never be passed up, least you regret it till the end of your days. Wondering, "What if," isn't an option. Knowing, "This is what I want," is the reason to go on. Under no circumstance should you give up. If you give up, you weren't trying hard enough. "Not meant to be," is bullshit. "Never stop yourself short," should be your motto. If deterred by the mention of the word, "Impossible," you fail. Turn "Impossible," into "Possible," then we'll talk. Things that come easily are fun for only so long. It's what you have to work for that actually has a meaning. Asking, "Is all of it worth it," is a sign of weakness. Knowing, "Every moment matters," should be what drives you. Go forward and don't look back. Let nothing short of the world ending stop you. When all you see is her smile… When all you hear is her laugh… (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 30th, 2006
3:46 pm	Galled I find my loathing of people to be reaching an all-time high. Constant lies. Two-faced-ness. It's all rather old, now. I need to get away from people. Too bad I have a month straight of dealing with them. Maybe it will go by fast. Or maybe, I'll be so rude that they'll just all go away... This could end well after all. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006
1:44 pm	The dreamer of dreams I've been having some rather odd dreams lately. One dream had me in the middle of a war that ended with a nuclear explosion, and me dying. Not too much on the great side. Then Sunday night/morning I had the following dream: I was in a house that was like a composition of my parent's home and one of my aunt's homes. It was rather big, but everyone who was in the house were people I didn't know. Then it came. This... thing started to chase me. It looked like a little girl, and was quite literally little. She looked to be about 7 or 8, but was no taller than 3', and was proportionate. Meaning, she didn't have the looks of a midget, she was just a tiny person. Her hair was scraggly, like it hadn't been washed in a long time. Her clothes were torn and dirty. Her skin was a gray-black color. Kind of like the color they used for Kayako's face on the domestic cover of The Grudge but with prevalent black lines in place. She also had one really huge orange eye that could look freely about. Rather creepy. Once she saw me, she started chasing me, screaming the entire time. It was horrible. I ran through the house trying to avoid her. If I feel down, she would start to climb up me until I was able to grab her and throw her off. She got thrown a lot. The sad part was that no one else could see her, so to them I was just a crazy guy running through the house knocking shit over for no reason at all. Then a dog showed up and it could somehow sense the girl there and attacked her, biting her arm. She just stood there and took it until she broke free and continued her pursuit of me. So there I am back to running. Eventually I end up waking up. I look at the time and see there is a lot more time left before I have to be anywhere and decide to go back to sleep for a bit, knowing full well that I was slightly freaked out from the dream, but was too tired to really do anything about it. So I go back to sleep and I end up in the same house. In my dream all I'm able to think is something along the lines of, "Well fuck me", or "Son of a BITCH!" So I walk through the house all slow, looking around corners, checking for that little evil girl. And I don't see her. I end up in the kitchen (which is a perfect melding of my parent's and my aunt's kitchen, except it had giant ceiling to floor glass windows and doors that looked out into the back yard). For whatever reason I end up doing the dishes all the while looking out for the girl. At one point I'm washing a cup when I sense something looking at me. I turn to look outside, and there is the evil girl in the backyard just looking in on me. Not moving other than her eye. I freak out, but don't move. I didn't want her chasing me anymore to tell the truth. So she just stands there for a long time. Then someone walks by with a leash attached to the dog from the previous dream. The dog senses the girl again and attacks. She sticks out her arm and lets the dog go away while looking at me. There is then a yelp and the dog falls, presumably dead. The girl then somehow gets inside, and I'm being chased once again. This went on for a little while. Eventually I wake up and just wonder how the hell any of that happened. But not long after I go back to sleep. Luckily not into that house again. Either way... creepy dream. Though, I do want to turn it into something. (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
12:23 pm	Thank you, God. http://comingsoon.net/news/movienews.php?id=15524 Best news all month. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
12:50 am	... "A good-bye is never painful unless you're never going to say hello again." --Anonymous I don't even know where to start. I just found out that a friend of mine killed herself yesterday morning. Although I haven't seen her in over a year, maybe more, it's still painful as fuck. She was a sweet heart of a girl and gave the best high fives in the world. She drove the coolest car and had an awesome sense of humor (she could hang with me, so all was well). But now she's gone. I'm not sure why, yet. I plan to find out, but everyone is to taken aback to call the family. It sucks because it's hard to imagine that someone would do it. It's the second time in my life that someone that I know has done it, but... I just can't fathom it at all. I... I'll write more later. Maybe. Bye. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
2:03 pm	Surveys kill time, wee! 69 Questions to Start the Summer 1. Are you a relationship type person? At the moment, no. 2. Do you hate more than 3 people? Maybe two. One for sure. 3. How many houses have you lived in? Too many. 4. What is your favorite candy bar? Mint Kit-Kats. 5. What are your favorite shoes? Anything Adidas. 6. Have you ever tripped someone? Not that I know of. 7. What was your least favorite subject this year? No school for me. 8. What was your favorite subject this year? No school for me. 9. Do you own a Britney Spears CD? Nope. 10. Have you ever thrown up in public? Not that I remember. 11. Name something that's always on your mind. Music. 12. What is your favorite music genre? I dabble in everything. 13. What is your sign? Taurus. 14. What time were you born? 3:40-something AM. 15. Do you like beer? No. 16. Have you ever made a prank call? Only to my own employees. 17. What is the most embarrassing CD you own? I bought it because I like it, I'm not embarrassed by it. 18. Are you sarcastic? Probably too often for some people's liking. 19. What are your favorite colors? Blue and green. 20. How many watches do you own? None. I use my cell phone or iPod. 21. Summer or winter? Summer. 22. Spring or fall? Fall. 23. What is your favorite color to wear? Red. 24. sprite or coke? Sprite. 25. What color is your cell phone? Black and silver. 26. Where is your second home? Applebee's. 27. Have you ever slapped someone? Yes. Vince. Once. It was hilarious. 28. Have you ever had a cavity? Yup. 29. How many lamps are in your bedroom? One. 30. How many video games do you own? According to my list on GAF 269 games. But there are some missing (mostly imports) and some new ones that I have gotten but haven't added to the list. 31. What was your first pet? The one that I started off with taking care of was my dog Maggie. I got her when I was ten. She's still alive and with my parents. She'll be going any day now. :( 32. Have you ever had braces? Yes. 33. Do looks matter? It's what starts the attraction to the person. 34. Do you use Chapstick? Yes. 35. Name 3 teachers from your high school. Negrete, Hamilton, Yabanez. 36. American Eagle or Abercrombie? Abercrombie on principle. 37. Are you too forgiving? Probably. 38. How many children do you want? That depends on how things work out. 39. Do you own something from Hot Topic? Nope. 40. What is your favorite breakfast? 2 eggs, 2 bacan, and waffles. 41. Do you own a gun? Air soft. 42. Have you ever thought you were in love? Nope. 43. When was the last time you cried? The first time I went to my cousin's grave. 44. What did you do 3 nights ago? Painted Louie's office then had dinner with my family. 45. When was the last time you went to Olive Garden? When I went with Darin about two months ago. 46. Have you ever called your teacher mom? Not that I remember. 47. Have you ever been in a castle? Nope. 48. What are your nick names? Mikey 2x4 and variations of the name, Michael. I get called Hey quite frequently. 49. Do you know anyone named Bertha? Oh man, I wish! 50. Have you ever been to Kentucky? Goodness no. Though, oddly enough, we were going to move there at one point. 51. Do you own something from Banana Republic? No. 52. Are you thinking about somebody right now? Nope. 53.Have you ever called somone boo? I'm not black. 54. Do you smoke? No. 55. Do you own a diamond ring? Nope. 56. Are you happy with your life right now? I can honestly say, yes. 57. Do you dye your hair? No. 58. Does anyone like you? Doubt it. I stay pretty much keep to myself lately. 60. What were you doing May of 1994? Jesus, I have no clue. 61. Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD? No. 62. McDonald's or Wendy's? Neither. 63. Do you like yourself? I love me. 64. Are you closer to your mother or father? I lived with my mom most of my life, so she gets it by default. 65. Favorite feature of the opposite sex? Personality. And the ability to call back. 66. Are you afraid of the dark? I love it. 67. Have you ever eaten paste? Goodness no. 68. Do you have a webcam? Nope. New iMac will have one, whenever it is I get that. 69. Have you ever stripped? Nope. PART 2 1. Are you having a good day? It was okay until the guy I really hate came in. 2. Who is the last person you saw? The guy who heard me go off on the guy I hate. 3. Are you seeing anyone? I see myself. He does a good job at brushing my teeth. 4. What did you sleep in? My bed. 5. What was the last thing that you bought? Boston Legal season 1 and London. 6. Who do you love? Very few people. 7. What can you see right now? A wall full of DVDs. And blind fury. 8. What was the last thing that you ate? Waffles this morning. 9. Who was the last person you talked to? This lady asking about Speed Racer stuff. 10. What are your plans for the day? Off at 3. Maybe go by my parents place for a bit, maybe not. Go home, get some laundry done. Work out. Eat. Watch either London or Boston Legal with Vince. 11. Anyone you want to kill right now? The guy who was in here. 12. Favorite color and why? Macorroni and Cheese, because why would you even need to make that color? 13. Anything you want right now? X-3 to exceed my low expectations. Not going to happen, though. (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 27th, 2006
2:24 pm	I am Jack's busy life. April 15th- Bought Hyde tickets in the morning then went and picked up Vince. We put some of his boxes in my car and headed over to the apartment to do the final walkthrough. Then it was off to sign a shitload of papers. Like, literally a small mountain of documents. It was gross. After that, and some bullshitting with the lady who set up our stuff, we went to move in the boxes that we brought. Did that then went back to my parents house to see about getting the fridge. Charlie gets ready; we go to get a dolly from Vince's. Get Vince's dad's truck and a dolly, get back to my parents house to be told that the storage place was closed due to the holiday weekend. Go figure. So no fridge for us, we just load up the trucks with some of my stuff then drop them off at the apartment. The rest of the day is us moving shit in, and unpacking a little. April 16th- I wake up far too early after going to bed far too late. I'm exhausted, but I have a lot to do. Start unpacking more stuff and start to set up the place in general. I need bookshelves... lots of them. I have a LOT of DVDs, games, graphic novels, mangas, and books. It's pretty insane. Did as much unpacking as possible then went to dinner at my parents for Easter. Ended up watching the 1989 Batman movie with them. I hate Tim Burton. But I would still own those movies. :shrug: April 17th-20th- I just worked to go home and try to get thing in order. One night my friend, Bo, came over so I cooked dinner for everyone. To do this though, I had to borrow pots and pans from my mom. Kind of sucked, but you deal with what you can get. Dinner turned out well, though. Vince bought a patio table and chairs and we ate outside. Very cool. Other than it was work at work, then went home to work some more. We get to the point where we were tired of working and just ended up playing video games. We played through Ico. Great game. Right now we're going through Shadow of the Colossus. Great times. April 21st- I went out to warehouse to get stuff then went to the store to enter new shit and meet up with Ron as I was supposed to go and get my shit out of storage that day. Well, turns out they weren't prepared (how, I don't know) and we postponed it until Sunday. Sunday was also the day we had to postpone getting out fridge until. So this just means another busy day off. Yay! Later that night we went and picked up Ray as he was going to stay the weekend with us, then headed out to dinner at Applebee's where we got a girl that looks a lot like the girl that we don't like... much sadness. And she was SLOW, too. Anyway, we ate then went out to the Block to see Silent Hill. It's a good movie, regardless of what some shitty reviewers say. There are things that don't flow right, and there is a huge, "cards on the table" moment, which kind of bugged me. But for fans of the game (which is the target audience, no matter what anyone says) it was faithful and is easily the best video game movie ever made. April 22nd- Worked all day. Vince brought Ray with him to work since we didn't have a fridge and it isn't really a place that can sustain life for any amount of time without one. So the three of us were just doing random shit all day. Though, it was funny that Ray is 12 but people were asking him questions about the store. I guess when you're behind the counter you're just subject to those questions. Yet, I'm always asked if I work here when I'm sitting right in front of the computer. What a world. After work we went to Applebee's (yes, again) and got Stephanie this time. At least we had someone to bullshit with. The gay guy who works who wants Vince and I talked to us for a bit, too. Cool guy. He reminds me of Luigi, but a tad more on the manly side. When we were done there we went back out to the Block as Vince wanted some candles. Hung out there for a bit then made our way back home. The three of us just hung out talking about comics and video games while playing Midway Arcade Classics. Highly odd, but it was a lot of fun. Moment of the night was when Vince just went toward his room with a huge smile on his face. He didn't come back out for a long time. Ray questioned this and I went to see what was up, he was out cold. The rat bastard. Ray and I took this as our cue to get to sleep as we had to move in a fridge, get stuff out of storage, and go to Ikea all in one day. Yay for Sundays! April 23rd- I woke up early (again), Vince and Ray were still asleep. I jumped in the shower and then ended up playing a game to pass time. I popped in Dragon Quest VIII and got caught up in that for a while. It's funny because with most RPGs, I'd forget what I was doing and would have to start over if it had been some time. But with DQVIII, I just jumped right back in. Proof that the story is interesting enough to have me remember it. Ray woke up and we talked about random stuff and how we were hungry. So we went to get us a quick breakfast at Jack in the Box (which is horrible, but no fridge = no good breakfasts). Came back and Vince was up. The three of us ate then just kind of sat there for a bit, not really wanted to do anything. We had until 2 to meet at my parents house for the fridge so we were soaking up the nothingness time. We made it to my parents house and they got a friend of theirs to help out. So at least we wouldn't die trying to get the fridge up to the apartment. After picking the fridge up, and some work getting it up the stairs (which was a bitch, but it could have been much worse), we now have a fridge at home. This makes us rather happy. We then went to Ron's apartment only to find out that their storage place closes early on Sundays and we were assed out until Friday. Oh well, so it goes. So then we head over to Ikea to pick up Vince's bed. We get there and Vince remembers that his wallet is still at home. But, since we're there we decide to at least look around. We end up finding a lot of stuff that we want to get, but since we have to conserve money we can only get a little at a time. I did end up picking up a coffee table for $20 and two scotch glasses for $2 each, though. Not bad. We went back to the house, got Vince's wallet and then headed back out to Ikea. We found what we needed for Vince's bed but discovered that it was far too big to fit in my car. Even with both of the back seats down. So we were screwed. Liz's phone is disconnected, so he had no way of calling her and having her meet us at Ikea, so no bed for Vince. He just picked up two barstools for the bar, two more scotch glasses, and this thing to hold silverware in, and a new lamp for his room. We rushed back home because we could have sworn that the laundry mat closed at 10 and that we were going to be screwed out of being able to get stuff cleaned. So we came home, got our laundry together, threw our laundry into the washing machines, went and took Ray home, stopped off for dinner (the second meal of the day nearly 10 hours after the first. Yes, we are champions), then went back to put the clothes in the dryer and were prepared to wait in the laundry room for them to be done. They can't close it close it with you in there, right? Luckily for us, we noticed that the laundry mat doesn't close until 12, so we rushed like mad for nothing, but at least we had time to make sure everything was done. We built the stuff we bought at Ikea and finally got around to throwing out all of the empty boxes. Home is looking more and more like home. We got our clothes and ended up crashing out shortly after. April 24th- I worked out at Mainplace. It was slow and I just read and wrote the whole day. I finished The Rum Diary which was really good, but I have no idea how it's going to be turned into a movie. There is a LOT of inner dialog, so we'll have to see. After work I went to my parents as my mom said she was going to treat us to a grocery-shopping spree. I was keen to this idea so we went and bought a lot of the necessities and random food to make during the week. It was probably the most original and practical birthday gift I've ever received. I then went home just in time to meet Vince and we brought the groceries in. We put everything away and I got started on making us dinner. We ate and watched Dragon Half, then decided to finish off Ico (that's when it happened) and start Shadow of the Colossus. About 1:00 we just crashed out. April 25th- My birthday. I went into work found that Fizah had left me a comment about my birthday elsewhere, so that was nice. Louie's dad came pretty early. I was in the middle of shipment when my dad called. We talked about random stuff and how we were going to have to meet up to celebrate both his birthday and mine. As soon as I got off the phone with him, my grandmother called. I talked to her for a little bit and we went over the same things. I told her I would call her once my cell phone was back up and running and I went back to work. Then I get a message from my uncle. It reads: HAPPY (as the title) Body: BIRTH DAY ! That was it. I enjoyed it. I kept working and I checked my email to find a message from Kim. It read like a c/p she did for everyone who had a birthday in April, but it's the thought that counts. At one point Ray messaged to me telling me that he had my gift for me. Why he got me anything, I have no clue. We just talked about random stuff then it was time for me to take off to deposit my check, get a hair cut, then get ready to go to my parents for dinner. I went over to their place around 8 and the Twilight Zone was on, I was more than happy to watch that. We ate good grub, I talked to them about some random stuff: the new place, my shows in Hollywood, my brother's engagement. Oh yeah! Chris came in on Saturday with Carol (her birthday was this past weekend). He bought me the Lego Batplane for my birthday, which is freaking great. Anyway, it turns out his apartment in Arizona was broken into. They took just about everything that meant something (mainly video games... so sad). So he isn't going to be living there and is moving in with Carol. But in order for this to happen he had to produce the ring. So, he's now engaged. Carol is ecstatic because I'm sure in her mind it is like, "About time." Chris I'm sure is happy, but it's more a formality to him. Anyway, I left there and went back home. Vince was there and was ready to go work out, he asked if I wanted to go with him and I just really wanted to go to Applebee's for dessert and end my birthday bsing with the cats at Applebee's. He said he wanted to go too, but was going to work out real quick. Which was fine. He went to his room and brought out my gift, Metroid Prime: Hunters. Nice. He then went off to work out while I tried out the game only to have my DS die. Oh well. So I decided to work on my new song instead. It's coming along really well. It's going to be a Mikey 2x4/Gravity Clutch/iRez extravaganza. I can't wait. Vince came back, showered, then we hauled ass off to Applebee's because we could have sworn that they closed at 11:00. Turns out that they close at 12:00 except for Friday and Saturday when they close at 1:00. Go Applebee's. Unfortunately, no one we knew was working. The gay guy was there, but he was having dinner with the boss or something and we didn't get to talk to him. The girl we had was pretty cool, just not someone we know. But Vince being Vince may have made things rather interesting for us when we go there again... we'll see. We went back to the apartment and Shawn was there (he had been there the whole time we were at Applebee's, this didn't make us go much faster, though). He brought me some gifts. One was a little book called, On Bullshit which he said was a hilarious essay on attempting to define the term, "bullshit" (which I read all of the next day and while there were parts I chuckled at, it wasn't hilarious, just okay), and The Complete Idiot's Guide to Pirates. I approve of this book as it will just be fun to read through on random. We all hung out for a bit and I ended up saying good night around 2:00 since I had to work out at Mainplace the following day. I have no idea how long Shawn was there, but apparently he was annoying the fuck out of Vince. Oh well, I was asleep. April 26th- I get to Mainplace and get a call a little bit after opening from the girl that was supposed to close that night. She had a test coming up and needed to study so her sister was going to come in and cover her shift. But her sister wouldn't be able to make it until 5:30 or so. Go extra time on the freeway! It was DEAD there. I ended up reading all of On Bullshit, the rest of the Nightwing trade I had, the rest of a Batman trade I had, and the first 70 pages of the Chuck Palahniuk book that I started. Not only that, but I was able to organize their new release DVD and mangas, and clean out under the glass on this one case (which was just gross), all before Karina came in... so sad. She came, I bounced out, thought the freeway was going to be kind. I was wrong. Once I hit the 91 it was all over. I battled through and just took my normal exit and was going to go for the 10 from the side streets, but decided that I had had enough of traffic and I ended up going to Frank's for a bit. Found two cheap trades then left. I ended up getting home the same time as Vince. We just went into the house and sat there. Not really doing anything. Liz came, we went to eat, she went home, and Vince and I continued to really do nothing. I ended up going to sleep at 11:30. Today- I'm going to get some stuff done around the store (now that I've wasted a good amount of time writing a far too long blog... again), get off, go to the comic book store, go home and clean up, then start dinner a little before Vince gets there so we can have some good foods. Luke left my gift when he worked here yesterday. All I have to say is, Luke = <3. Tomorrow I'm supposed to be able to get into Ron's storage. If I can, I will be rather happy. It will also mean that I will be trying out a lot of stuff to make sure it still works. This weekend should be interesting. We told my parents that we would help them paint their house on Sunday. Sunday is supposed to be in the 80s temperature wise. I may be red on Monday. We'll see. Either way, I really need to get on selling the tickets for the Hollywood show. I have 23 more to go for me to play. But after that, I just go there. Being a house act kicks much ass. Hopefully I'll update more. But I've said that before and we know how that turns out. You reading a way too many words. It could be worse, though. I could be Ash Paulsen. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 31st, 2005
2:06 pm	Taken from my Myspace, because, well, I can do that. In 11.5 hours, 2005 will be gone. Done with. Over. In some ways, I'm really sad. This year wasn't all that bad. I learned a lot and got to be friends with some really great people. Yet, on the other hand, I'm absolutly estatic that this year is over. With each of the ups, there were at least three downs. And while there no use in going into all of them. Just trust me. This year had some pretty shitty moments. Though, a new year is fast approaching. A new year where I can begin to change more. To become that person I've wanted to be for some time. All the while, still maintaining the parts of me that those around me have come to know and appreciate. Also see, adore. Also see, love. Also see, hate (in some cases, I'm sure). With the new year, people make resolutions. They stick with them for about the month of January (some for about a week, or hell, less than that), then they forget about them. I want to make a list that I hope to stick by. I want to put it on here because the ones who read these blogs are the ones who are most likely to call me on my shit if I start to fall away from it all (especially Luke). So here it is, my list of resolutions... I hope I can follow it. - Continue to excercise, eat write, lay off the soda, and all of that. If it is a weight problem that is making my heart act the way it does, then I'm going to continue on my good health regime. I'm not a fan of me dying anytime soon. This place is fucked at times, but I do have fun. - Speaking of the heart, get a chest x-ray. You can't be to sure. I've put it off in the past due to money issues. But since I've somehow learned how to manage my money better, then I'm pretty sure I can swing it. - On the money management note, take a vacation. I've worked every day since I was 17. Never once have I taken a vacation. If I had a couple of days off, I was still called into work, or called from work to try and deal with something. I want to get away from everything, probably for a couple of weeks. Just not worry about anything other than how I'm going to survive in another part of the world. Italy is apparently an option, but I don't know what the status on that is at the moment. Lack of communication on both parties ends has lead to a big question mark there. If anything, there is always Japan. - Spend more time with family and friends. Recent events have made me really vaule you the time I spend with everyone. It's cliche, but you seriously don't know when someone is going to gone. In turn, I know that I make myself pretty unaccessible to most what with work and all. But I would like to change that and make more time for more people. This may honestly be the hardest one. It isn't a lot, but I feel if I try to do too many things, I'll end up dropping one of them, and that isn't my goal. I have other intentions for the year, but they are small, and not worth noting. Nor worth having people get on me for. So, I shall try my best. For serious. Indeed. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
3:18 pm	Well So, it happened. I didn't think it would. But it did. I tired myself out. I figured, if I could make it up to this point without a day off, I could make it the last few days. Yet, the last few days were long. 15 hours each. Saturday was 15 hours. Sunday was 8, yet I went out, and that experience felt as close to work as anything else as I had to try my hardest to make sure everyone was having a good time. Then there was Monday through Wednesday. 15 hours each. Very little sleep inbetween. To top all of that off, I started to feel sick yesterday. Yesterday was miserable. My chest was acting up a lot. The heart pains, or whatever they are, were kicking my ass something fierce. To top that off, breathing became a sort of far off concept a lot of the time. There were several times where I would just have to stop everything and take big breaths... it sucked. Top that off with what I can only imagine was utter exhaustion, and I wasn't in a good place. I was bitter toward pretty much everyone. All I wanted was sleep. I was to the point where I felt that, if I had gone to sleep, and something happened to me while sleeping, and I died, I would have been okay with that. No good-byes. No farewells. Just me, sleeping forever. The idea was a truly grand one. Not that the idea of death seems like a good one to me. But last night, I would have welcomed it with open arms. Pretty fucking emo, but man, if you could have felt what I was feeling, you might have said the same thing. Yet, I'm lucky enough to have Luigi working for me, as he opened for me today. Enabling me to get as much rest as possible before braving these last three days. I don't think he understands, but he is seriously one of my heroes now. I needed that extra sleep so bad. Today there is a bounce in my step and my voice is a little more back to normal. In all, I'm closer to being more me than I have been for the past month. This is good. I like me. I don't like the too-much-work-for-my-own-good me. That one has problems. ____________ Also, I believe it's funny that the less contact you have with people, the more of a gap that it can put between you and them. With some people, it isn't a problem at all. Others, if you don't talk to them, they'll distance themselves from you. Being busy is a sin. May death come to those who don't want to devote themselves to others 24/7, apparently. Humans are an odd breed. (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
1:25 am	Yup... I am scum. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
9:13 pm	Movie Whore am I Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore. (x)Pirates of the Caribbean (x)Boondock Saints ( )The Mexican (x)Fight Club ( )Starsky and Hutch (x)Neverending Story (x)Neverending Story II: The Next Chapter ( )Neverending Story III (x)Blazing Saddles ( )Garden State (x)The Princess Bride (x)Young Frankenstien (x)AnchorMan ( )Napoleon Dynamite (x)Saw (x)Saw II ( )White Noise ( )White Oleander ( )Anger Management total here: 11 ( )50 First Dates ( )Jason X (x)Scream (x)Scream 2 ( )Scream 3 (x)Scary Movie ( )Scary Movie 2 (x)Scary Movie 3 (x)American Pie ( )American Pie 2 ( )American Wedding (x)Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (x)Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (x)Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban ( )Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (x)Resident Evil (x)Resident Evil: Apocolypse (x)The Wedding Singer ( )Little Black Book total here: 11 (x)The Village (x)The Sixth Sense (x)Donnie Darko ( )Lilo & Stitch (x)Finding Nemo (x)Finding Neverland ( )13 Ghosts (x)Signs (x)The Grinch (x)Texas Chainsaw Masscare ( )White Chicks (x)Butterfly Effect (x)Thirteen Going on 30 (x)i,Robot ( )Dodgeball (x)Universal Soldier ( )A Series Of Unfortunate Events ( )Along Came A Spider (x)Deep impact total here: 13 (x)King Pin (x)Never Been Kissed ( )Meet The Parents ( )Meet the Fockers ( )Eight Crazy Nights (x)A Cinderella Story ( )The Terminal ( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie ( )Passport to Paris (x)Dumb & Dumber ( )Dumb & Dumberer ( )Final Destination (x)Final Destination 2 (x)Halloween (x)Halloween II ( )Halloween III: Season of the Witch ( )Halloween 4: The Return of Michael Myers ( )Halloween 5 (x)Halloween: The Curse of Michael Myers (x)H20 (x)The Ring ( )The Ring 2 (x)Ringu (x)Ringu 2 (x)Ringu 0 ( )Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle ( )Practical Magic ( )Chicago ( )Ghost Ship (x)From Hell ( )Hellboy ( )Secret Window ( )I Am Sam ( )The Whole Nine Yards ( )The Whole Ten Yards ( )The Day After Tomorrow (x)Child's Play (x)Child's Play 2 (x)Child's Play 3 ( )Bride of Chucky ( )Seed of Chucky (x)Ten Things I Hate About You ( )Just Married ( )Gothika (x)Nightmare on Elm Street (x)Nightmare on Elm Street Part 2: Freddy's Revenge ( )Nightmare on Elm Street Part 3: The Dream Warriors (x)Nightmare on Elm Street Part 4: The Dream Master ( )Nightmare on Elm Street: The Dream Child (x)Nightmare on Elm Street: The Final Nightmare (x)New Nightmare (x)Sixteen Candles (x)Bad Boys ( )Bad Boys 2 (x)Joy Ride (x)Seven ( )Oceans Eleven ( )Oceans Twelve ( )Identity total here: 27 ( )Lone Star (x)Predator I (x)Predator II (x)Commando (x)Total Recall (x)Running Man (x)Kindergarten Cop (x)Twins (x)Conan the Barbarian (x)Conan the Destroyer (x)Red Sonja (x)Last Action Hero (x)The Eraser (x)True Lies (x)Hercules in New York (x)Independence day (x)Cujo ( )Bronx Tale (x)Darkness Falls ( )Christine (x)ET ( )Children of the Corn ( )My Boss' daughter ( )Maid in Manhattan (x)Frailty ( )Best Bet ( )How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days (x)She's All That ( )Calendar Girls ( )Sideways ( )Mars Attacks total here: 20 (x)Event Horizon (x)Ever After (x)Forrest Gump (x)Big Trouble in Little China (x)X-men (x)X2 (x)Catch Me If You Can (x)The Others ( )Freaky Friday (x)Reign of Fire ( )The Hot Chick ( )Swimfan ( )Miracle ( )Old School (x)Ray ( )The Notebook (x)K-Pax total here: 11 (x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring (x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers (x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King ( )A Walk to Remember (x)Boogeyman ( )Hitch (x)The Fifth Element (x)Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace (x)Star Wars Episode II: Attack of The Clones (x)Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of The Sith (x)Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope (x)Star Wars Episode V: Empire Strikes Back (x)Star Wars Episode VI: Return of The Jedi (x)Troop Beverly Hills ( )Swimming with Sharks ( )Air Force One ( )For Richer or Poorer (x)Trainspotting ( )People Under the Stairs ( )Blue Velvet (x)Sound of Music (x)Parent Trap (1961) ( )Parent Trap (1998) (x)Parent Trap II (1986) (x)The Burbs (x)The Terminator (x)Terminator 2: Judgment Day (x)Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines (x)Empire Records (x)SLC Punk ( )Meet Joe Black ( )Wild Girls (x)A Clockwork Orange (x)The Order (x)Spider-man (x)Spider-man 2 (x)Superman (x)Superman II (x)Superman III (x)Superman IV: The Quest for Peace (x)Batman (x)Batman Returns (x)Batman Forever (x)Batman and Robin (x)Batman Begins ( )Amelie total here: 35 ( )Mean Girls (x)Shrek ( )Shrek 2 (x)The Incredibles (x)Collateral (x)War of the Worlds (x)The Minority Report (x)Risky Business (x)Cocktail (x)Mission:Impossible (x)M:I 2 (x)The Fast & The Furious ( )2 Fast 2 Furious (x)Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow ( )Closer total here: 11 (x)Titanic ( )Saved! ( )Bowling for Columbine ( )Farenheit 9/11 (x)Artificial intelligence (AI) ( )Love, Actually ( )Shutter ( )Ella Enchanted (x)Princess Diaries (x)Princess Diaries 2 (x)Constantine ( )Million Dollar Baby ( )Envy (x)Eurotrip ( )Malibu's Most Wanted ( )Big Daddy (x)Black Sheep (x)Tommy Boy (x)The Breakfast Club (x)West Side Story total here: 10 (x)A Christmas Story ( )Spanglish (x)Pulp Fiction ( )Sleepover (x)The Evil Dead (x)The Evil Dead 2 (x)Army of Darkness (x)Killer Klowns From Outer Space ( )Vanilla Sky (x)Nightmare Before Christmas (x)Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind (x)Interview With The Vampire (x)The Crow ( )The Crow: City of Angels ( )The Crow: Salvation ( )The Crow: Wicked Prayer ( )Purple Rain ( )Reservoir Dogs (x)Wayne's World (x)Wayne's World 2 total here: 12 ( )21 Grams ( )Blow (x)Edward Scissorhands (x)Clerks (x)Beauty and the Beast (x)Guess Who ( )Monster in-law ( )Elf ( )Stuart Little ( )Stuart Little 2 (x)Mall Rats (x)Chasing Amy (x)Dogma (x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back (x)Jersey Girl total here: 9 (x)Beetlejuice (x)The Last Samurai (x)The Amityville Horror (1979) (x)The Amityville Horror (2005) ( )The Aviator (x)Romeo and Juliet (1968) (x)Romeo and Juliet (1996) ( )Barbershop ( )Beauty Shop (x)Legally Blonde ( )Legally Blonde 2 ( )The Forgotten ( )Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen (x)The Grudge (x)Ju-On (x)Ju-On 2 total here: 10 (x)Platoon (x)Cry-Baby (x)Benny and Joon (x)What's Eating Gilbert Grape (x)Ed Wood (x)Don Juan DeMarco (x)Donnie Brasco (x)Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (x)The Ninth Gate (x)Sleepy Hollow (x)Once Upon A Time in Mexico (x)Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (x)Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (x)The Corpse Bride Total here:14 (x)Cool World (x)My Girl (x)Kalifornia (x)Legends of the Fall (x)Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels (x)Snatch (x)Spy Game (x)Troy (x)Mr. and Mrs. Smith (x)Good Will Hunting (x)School Ties (x)Saving Private Ryan (x)Rounders (x)Titan A.E. (x)The Brother's Grimm Total here:15 (x)Buffy the Vampire Slayer (x)Dazed and Confused (x)Armageddon (x)Daredevil (x)The Phantom of the Opera (2004) ( )The Phantom of the Opera (1989) ( )The Phantom of the Opera (1925) ( )The Phantom of the Opera (1962) (x)The Music Man (x)The Producers (1968) Total here: 7 Total: 216. I’m not done, but I don’t have the time to write more… more later. (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 19th, 2005
10:09 am	On my part I've quite honestly come to the conclusion that we are far better off as friends than a couple. I'm not a TV, picture perfect boyfriend. I can't be. And I won't be. I do things my way. I go out of my way to do things for those around me. Yet, when it feels it isn't worth much, what more can I do? As friends we're perfect. We can talk about some things. Yet, as a couple, it seems there is a communication barrier that neither of us can lift. The things that I like don't exactly excite you into conversation; the same goes for some of the things you like. We're opposites. There are similarities. But they seem to be few and far inbetween for both of us. For you to go see a movie that you've been waiting for at midnight is fun and exciting. For me, I should be sleeping at that time as I don't get much sleep in the first place. I still want to hang out. Truly. I'm not kidding. But I think us as a couple doesn't work. It saddens me to say so, because I know the impact that it would have on you. It also makes me made that I have to do this through a fucking journal entry. Yet, when we talk in person, I don't know what else to say (it seems neither of us really knows what to say, really). Again, I do still want to hang out with you. I'd want to see Harry Potter with you. And still see "Lost" with you (granted, that means I need to have a Wednesday night off, and well, next Wednesday is my last one for a month). Though, I understand if you want to never speak to me again after all of this. I am sorry. I truly am. Believe me if you want. Cuse me out if you want. It doesn't change the fact that I still want to be here as a friend. The guy you will probably hate for some time, -Mikey (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 11th, 2005
3:39 pm	How much fun I had with it on myspace. This was on my friend Daren's myspace. He is a guy. And a friend that I only talk to once every 6 months or so. The answers are mine to him. BASIC Shit: Name and at least 2 Nicknames: Age: 22 Location: In your pants if you want me there. Height: 6'1" Hair (color and style): Short and semi-spikey, could change if you want it to, though. <3 Eyes: Hazel. They can change color depending on my mood, apparently. Can you make them red with lust? Piercings/tattoos: Neither. But I've been contemplating getting "I love Daren" across my back. OTHER Shit: 1. Where would we go on dates (movies and shit dont count)? Wherever the action can be hot and heavy. 2. Who are three (or more) of your favorite bands/artists? L'arc-en-ciel. Gackt. K.C. and the Sunshine Band. 3. Do you drink/smoke/Toke up?? No. No. And no. 4. Do you like the rain? Only when we're running naked in it like that one time. 5. If so...would you play in it with me? See above. 6. Do you like movies and what kind? Love them. I can, and will, watch about anything. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night? Like Lionel said, "All night long!" 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? Only if I feel you deserve it. 9. Would you kiss my forhead? Only if I feel you deserve it. 10. Do you play an instrument or have any musical ability at all? Oh, I play an instrument all right. =====mw====D O: 11. If so...what? ;) 12. Would you call me right after we saw eachother to make sure i made it home alright? Yes. Even if it was just a few seconds, prior and you had just walked into your door. 13. How would you rate yourself from 1-10? When I'm around you, I feel like a 30. <3 14. Favorite body part on a boy? Hands... 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? My great ability to make up random shit. 16. Do you have any reps (ie: stonner, skank)? I'm known as, "that guy who works at the anime store." 17. Would you give me kisses just because? Only if you deserve it. 18. Would you shotgun a fat rip with me? You and your hippy language. So cute! Would You do if... I cried: Hit you because you were being a bitch. I said I liked you: <3 I kissed you: <3<3 I was hospitalized: I'd cry. And run to the hospital. In the rain. I ran away from home: Pray that God would make you and I a bird so we could fly. Fly far, far away from here. We got in a fight: I'd knock you the hell out! Pulled out a blunt: I might think less of you. I got dumped: Who would ever dump you? I would kick his/her ass. Was blazed out of my skull: This is new how? I pissed you off: Oh, you'll know... What Do You Think Of My... Personality: You're about one of the most adorable guys to talk to ever! <3 Eyes: Dark and lovely. Like my heart. Face: Perfect. Hair: Ever growing and changing, like my love for you. Clothes: Such great style. Voice: It's like angels speak to me. Humor: If you laugh at this, you're doing okay. Choice of music: You have a varying taste, which is awesome! Manners: So kind. Friends: They're all cool peoples. Decisions: Some good, some bad. Bad habits: We all have our vices. Would You... Be my friend: More! Tell me the truth no matter what: Always. Like right now. That shirt does not go with those pants. Buy me a birthday gift: If I could find a gift that could perfectly match the wonderfulness of you. Lie to make me feel bette I would never lie to you. I would just make it happen. Smoke out with me: I would do anything for love, but I won't do that. Spread rumors about me: That would be just uwful! Go out at 4am to get munchies: For sure. Keep a secret if I told you one: I already know you're secret. ===mw===D O: Roll with me: Aye. Loan me some cash: I know you're good for it. Hold my hand: Only if you would randomly hold mine. <3 Keep in touch: Oh yes... touch. Make me a snack: I make a killer PB&J. Try and solve my problems: It's what I do best. Love me: Too late. Makeout with me: Too late. Hold me in times of need: Of course my sugar plumb. Ditch me: Never ever! Use me: Never ever! ask me out: We've been through this... Date me: We've been through this... kiss with me whenever you had the chance: <3 Hold me and make my problems go away: Yes, though I always feel I have just died when I am in your arms. 1.who are you? I am me. 2.Are we friends? Yes. 3. When and how did we meet? You were walking along the beach and I just had to have you. 4. Do you ..OR..did you ever have a crush on me? <3 5. Would you kiss me? Too late. 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Snuggles! 7. Describe me in one word. Snuggles! 8. What was your first impression? "Hot freaking damn!" 9. Do you still think that way about me now? Yes. <3 10. What reminds you of me? Everything and nothing. 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? You already have my heart. What more do you want? 12. How well do you know me? So very, very well. 13. When's the last time you saw me? Asleep in my arms. <3 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? if so what? Every day! 15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you? Naturally! (Comment on this)
3:32 pm	Survey thing. It was fun on Myspace... BASIC what nots: Name and at least 2 Nicknames: Age: Location: Height: Hair (color and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: OTHER what nots: 1. Where would we go on dates, or you know, just out? 2. Who are three (or more) of your favorite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/smoke/other? 4. Do you like the rain? 5. If so...would you play in it with me? 6. Do you like movies and what kind? 7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. Could we cuddle and just fall asleep together? 9. Would you kiss my forhead? 10. Do you play an instrument or have any musical ability at all? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you call me right after we saw each other to make sure I made it home alright? 13. How would you rate yourself from 1-10? 14. Favorite body part on a boy? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: stonner, skank)? 17. Would you give me kisses just because? Would You do if... I cried: I said I liked you: I kissed you: I was hospitalized: I ran away from home: We got in a fight: I got dumped: I pissed you off: What Do You Think Of My... Personality: Eyes: Face: Hair: Clothes: Voice: Humor: Choice of music: Manners: Friends: Decisions: Bad habits: Would You... Be my friend: Tell me the truth no matter what: Buy me a birthday gift: Lie to make me feel better: Spread rumors about me: Go out at 4am to get munchies: Keep a secret if I told you one: Loan me some cash: Hold my hand: Keep in touch: Make me a snack: Try and solve my problems: Love me: Makeout with me: Hold me in times of need: Ditch me: Use me: Ask me out: Date me: Kiss me whenever you had the chance: Hold me and make my problems go away: 1.who are you? 2.Are we friends? 3. When and how did we meet? 4. Do you ..OR..did you ever have a crush on me? 5. Would you kiss me? 6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. 7. Describe me in one word. 8. What was your first impression? 9. Do you still think that way about me now? 10. What reminds you of me? 11. If you could give me anything what would it be? 12. How well do you know me? 13. When's the last time you saw me? 14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? if so what? 15. Are you going to put this on your blog and see what I say about you? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
4:43 pm	FUCK! Am I worth tearing a family apart over? I don't think so. I have no magic words to make anything better. I'm supposed to just meet someone who has judged me, from the start, with a smile on my face. This should be interesting. I don't take well to people who feel they have something to prove, and I really don't take well to people who wear goggles that don't let them see the whole picture. This whole thing is fucked up, confusing, and pretty much a total mess at the moment. I'm powerless and I don't like being in that posistion. And to top it all off... there was a dead roach in my Double Decker. Fuck today. (Comment on this)